I FEEL YOUR PAIN!

People will always remember me for my encouragement and my, almost permanent smile, but only those who really know me will look into my eyes and there they will see the agony of my soul.

I am a normal human being; I have so much empathy for people who are struggling with grief, depression, and work on the psychological side of palliative care. I feel the pain of others in my heart and soul.

My Beloved Father always said that I carry the weight of the world on my shoulders as I am sensitive to the pain that others are going through. When I hug another person, I feel a part of me giving them the spirit of comfort and peace. I refuse to transfer any negative energy on to anyone.

I must say that my life feels good as I live as a unique individual, I have had to learn to be independent of people. I am not the type of person that takes kindly to manipulation or controlling behaviour.

I must admit I have a few regrets in life, but I have continued to grow, learning from my mistakes.

I am mindful of everyone around me, and I like to nurture the people that remind me of how I used to feel with a lack of confidence and extremely low self-esteem. I overcame these hurdles by not caring what people thought of me I had to be happy with me that is what mattered.

Some people live an unfulfilled life as they allow themselves to be controlled by other individuals, they do not think for themselves and unfortunately do not even know who they truly are.

To free ourselves from the mundane thoughts and routines of life we must look within ourselves, the answer has been there all the time, only then will you wake up and start being.

In the past I have been told that I am rebellious, cold, and militant and even been compared to Adolf Hitler only because I do not suffer fools gladly, but on the whole outside of close relationships I am genuine, caring and nurturing.

I cannot say that I am totally in control of my life because occasionally I do rely on professional outside sources for my Mental Health and Wellbeing, but I am solely responsible for me.

Today I can say I am content with the way I live my life and the fact that I have a purpose on this earth which I put all my passion and effort into fulfilling and that is encouraging and supporting people in need of counsel and using my listening techniques. I have finally found myself.

I am a sensitive, emphatic soul and in the past have fallen terribly ill from taking on other people’s problems however today by practicing mindfulness I am managing to maintain a balance.

Natalie Bleau

The Scripture of Balance