PROCESSING…THOUGHT...CHANGE
Various stimuli — such as music, scent, sound, touch, or taste — can act as triggers throughout life.
Recently, I encountered a situation where a man shared his profound sadness over losing his mother a year ago, expressing his sorrow at never hearing her voice again. His words unexpectedly stirred memories of my Beloved Father, prompting a rush of emotions I hadn’t felt in a while.
Hearing others’ experiences of trauma can often trigger memories of our past and stir up feelings of anger within us.
What annoyed me the most was the justifications we crafted to excuse the mistreatment we endured from our tribe. The primary excuses often cited were either youthful naivety or the ingrained upbringing they had received from their ancestors.
Despite experiencing enough pain to want to break the cycle for future generations, we found ourselves spending our crucial adult years filled with bitterness and anger towards the world.
The punishment children endured was often attributed to the influence of religion and culture, passed down through generations.
The Bible and other cultural influences were sometimes interpreted to justify these punishments.
I envision love, protection, salvation, and faithfulness when contemplating God. It is truly remarkable how some individuals distort these beliefs and manipulate bible verses to exert control over others.
Individuals who were raised in the foster care system often endured mistreatment from their caregivers, as well as from other children coming from troubled households who struggled to express their emotions without resorting to aggression.
This harsh truth highlights the unfortunate reality of individuals bringing children into the world for their selfish reasons, ultimately subjecting them to a life of neglect and abuse.
Listening to these stories can be a catalyst for uncovering brutal truths, but it is essential to confront and process them to prevent them from overwhelming and consuming us.
There are moments when I struggle to confront something that unsettles me, and instead, I feel compelled to escape from it.
I comprehend that to overcome my fears, I must summon the courage to confront them directly and try to understand the root cause.
It can be challenging when something deeply resonates with your soul, causing you to feel the pain as if it were your own, tugging at your heartstrings. In those moments, I often find myself torn between anger and the desire to alleviate the person’s suffering.
As an empath, I can discern between genuine suffering and selfishly seeking attention from others.
Some people are adept at manufacturing issues in their lives, only to discover that they cannot handle the consequences of their actions. Subsequently, they turn to invoking mental health concerns as a method of avoiding accountability.Top of Form
I once had a conversation with a psychologist who shared with me the story of a privileged young person who expressed a desire to end their life because their parents refused to purchase them a new car.
Was his desire for death genuine, or was it a manipulation tactic to achieve his desires? This is the ingenuine, cunning nature some people have.
One would expect someone who lived a life filled with love, attention, and fulfilment to be well-balanced. However, they end up becoming spoiled and always wanting more. Their downfall came when the generosity ceased, leading them to claim they were not loved enough.
While material wealth doesn’t guarantee a joyful upbringing, it’s important to note that even privileged children may lack the fulfilment of parental love and attention.
I recall a friend once asserting that individuals born into affluent families lack any reason to be on the wrong side of the law. However, I respectfully disagree. Regardless of background or financial status, we all harbour desires and necessities.
Despite wealth, there remains an intangible aspect of life that money alone cannot fulfil.
Though I’ve found contentment in my life despite the challenges posed by my health, there’s a lingering sense of absence — a longing for someone compassionate and supportive to confide in and share burdens with.
When others perceive you as emotionally resilient, they often overlook your struggles during life’s challenges.
Constantly aiding others leaves little time to focus on your issues. During times of suffering, it’s common to isolate oneself and handle situations in unhealthy ways.
People may overlook that you’re sensitive and affected by issues that resonate with you.
While I strive to appear self-sufficient and resilient, there are moments when I yearn for someone to share my troubles and offer unwavering love and support.
I seek someone unconnected to me who can make unbiased decisions, is compassionate and empathetic, and is always ready to provide comfort.
Everyone needs someone who can make time for them. In my journey, I have faced every obstacle alone.
However, I’ve learned the value of having someone dependable and compassionate for support. I don’t want to surrender my freedom to someone else’s control but desire acceptance without feeling intimidated or manipulated.
Struggling with my thoughts and emotions alone has drained me. While I trust that God safeguards my sanity, I acknowledge the significance of not enduring it alone.
I’m growing more open to breaking down the walls of avoidance and distrust and welcoming someone genuine, with integrity and good character, into my life for support and companionship.
I have sensed significant growth within myself over the past year, and I feel prepared to establish the balance in my life that I’ve been seeking.
While maintaining my voice, independence of thought, and authenticity will always be paramount, I recognise that achieving balance involves sharing some weight with others.
In everything, there must be a balance.
Natalie M Bleau
Scripture of Balance
