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Dear Father
Six years, ten months, and three weeks have passed, yet the hole in my heart has only intensified beyond measure.
You have been occupying my thoughts a lot.
The brilliance of your smile and the captivating aura you carried with you everywhere you went.
The depth of affection I held for you could never be measured much like your beloved phrase, "How long is a piece of string?"
Never once have I found reason to doubt the immense pride you held for me or the deep appreciation you had towards me.
Every time we were together a profound sense of purpose enveloped me, effortlessly dissolving all the burdens that weighed upon my heart.
Father, your departure has bestowed upon me a wealth of wisdom, nurturing my spirit to strive for greatness in all that I do.
With Chris’s unwavering support and guidance, I gradually but steadily constructed a lasting tribute in your name.
I wholeheartedly embraced every piece of wisdom you shared during your last years, incorporating them into my journey.
In this present moment, I stand tall, fully aware of my identity, with resilience to any attempts to strip it away.
I have reclaimed the authority I once bestowed upon others, reclaiming the power that is rightfully mine.
With the gift of intellect bestowed upon me, I have embarked on a journey of independent thinking, effectively resetting and rejuvenating my mind.
I have finally broken free from the shackles of external influence, except for the guidance of my higher power.
Today, I am embracing your wise counsel from all those years, urging me to cease my futile attempts to please others and simply embrace my true self.
What’s truly remarkable is that I didn’t need to wait until my final moments to utter those regretful words, "if only..."
Despite the immense difficulty with my mental and emotional health, I have managed to set aside the bulk of my resentments and any lingering anger that resides within me.
Instead, I have redirected these emotions towards a more constructive and positive path.
Father, your unwavering belief in me has proven to be true. I have discovered a multitude of talents within myself that I never could have fathomed.
As I pen this down , I have blossomed into an incredibly imaginative individual, someone you would be doubly proud of witnessing today.
In the depths of my being, I have shed the false identity that others, throughout lifes journey, once imposed upon me.
No longer am I confined by the limitations they projected onto me.
Today, I stand tall as the architect of my own destiny, sculpting my character and forging my path. And for this transformation, I owe it all to you.
It feels like an eternity since you departed, and amidst the countless souls that have crossed over, none have inflicted such profound anguish as the void left by your absence.
Yet, peace finds me in the knowledge that you have found solace in a realm far superior, where my endless worries of safeguarding you are no longer necessary.
My Beloved Father , my love for you extends beyond the depths of my soul, and it shall forever be a testament to the reverence I hold for your name.
Until fate reunites us once more,
Your loving Daughter
Natalie (Birdie) x.
