THE DANGERS OF OVERTHINKING

Have you ever heard the expression “making elephants out of ants?”

It’s ironic how the things that tend to upset me the most are relatively trivial in the grand scheme of things.

My Father’s favourite saying was always, “No news is good news,” and I tend to agree with him most of the time.

For the past decade, I haven’t watched the news.

Sometimes, it’s best to remain unaware of specific things to maintain peace and equilibrium.

However, certain pieces of news are impossible to ignore, as they constantly circulate among your social circles.

It is a guarantee that we will constantly be inundated with more bad news than good news, as it is an inevitable aspect of life’s journey.

The past year brought the heartbreaking loss of several friends to suicide and unexpected deaths, and unfortunately, this year has not brought any relief.

As an empath, I can absorb and share the emotions of others. When someone is in pain, I feel their suffering like mine.

I am still struggling to navigate my own emotions of sadness because I am unsure of how to process them properly.

I prefer hiding my vulnerabilities and brokenness, presenting a tough exterior for others to see.

I have always weathered the storm on my own and seldom sought help during times of crisis.

I may not openly display my emotions, but that doesn’t make me heartless or self-centred.

It is essential to show genuine care for others, and I prioritise offering comfort and encouragement to those in need during challenging times.

I tend to overanalyse things, which I often find myself guilty of.

After bidding farewell to my family, I find myself lost in a whirlwind of imagined scenarios, playing out various possibilities.

Upon hearing that someone is in the hospital, my mind automatically starts envisioning the direst possibilities.

I’m extremely cautious and attentive when I’m out and about, carefully considering all potential health risks.

Living in constant fear is daunting and takes a significant amount of time.

I never fear for my own sake but rather for the safety and well-being of those around me.

Whenever I experience fear for my well-being, it is typically linked to a manic episode over which I have no power.

My vivid imagination has always fuelled my desire to become a writer.

I have yet to delve into the world of fiction writing, as my focus has been on creating self-discovery books.

It’s essential to remember that our thoughts do not always reflect reality.

Our thoughts can lead us into treacherous territory without proof or truth.

I often feel misunderstood as my thoughts race ahead of my ability to articulate them.

However, the allure of diazepam lies in its ability to calm the mind and reduce racing thoughts, despite its potential for addiction.

The negative aspect of using this medication is that you must always remain hyper vigilant and fully aware of your environment.

Receiving the medication brought me relief, as I was desperate to quiet the overwhelming storm of thoughts and emotions that threatened to engulf me in darkness.

There is a whirlwind of events in my life now, a mix of positive and negative occurrences. However, I am struggling to accept and embrace them all thoroughly.

I am currently delving into my subconscious through ‘shadow work’ to pinpoint my triggers and uncover their origins, ultimately getting to the core of why I am experiencing these thoughts and emotions.

The joy in my life stems from the deep bond I share with God, nurtured through prayer and a spirit of gratitude.

Without these essential components, I wouldn’t have made it this far.

In everything, there must be a balance.

Natalie M Bleau

Scripture of Balance